I am a positive, strong, independent and proudly Scottish mummy. I’m a mixture of contradictions: I’m a listener, who loves sitting and watching the sun set with my boys; and yet I also love being covered in glitter and dancing on table tops. I am a bit crazy, but I’m 100% me.
I was watching Netflix, had a little feel and bam! A lump
I was sadly diagnosed with breast cancer at the end of summer 2020. Following on from a few conversations with girlfriends and several Facebook postings of 'check your breasts', I was sitting up late one evening watching Netflix, and decided to have a little feel and bam! A lump, about the size of a grape on my right breast.
Before I found the lump, I was suffering big waves of fatigue with swelling breasts. I waited a few weeks, to gain confidence, before contacting my GP. The whirlwind breast cancer pathway went into full motion.
Many solo waiting rooms and solo sobbing in my car, in a hospital car park
Scans, biopsies, lots (and lots) of waiting between appointments; trying not to feel anxious and sick. Covid tests, periods of isolation, many a solo waiting room experience and many a ‘sobbing in my car in a hospital car park’. After two lumpectomies, hormone therapy, radiotherapy, a DVT and paused hormone therapy, I kind of feel I am coming out the other side (I said kind of!). My body is different, I have many scars, my breasts look different, my thought process has altered. It is the most scared I have ever felt in my life, not for myself but the thought of my beloved boys growing up without a mummy breaks my heart, I could cry a river just thinking about it.
I often hear, ‘oh you look so well’, but I just want to say that some diseases are horrible from the inside, but aren’t necessarily visible from the outside. So be kind. Cancer does not always end with NED (No Evidence of Disease). A lot of ladies do sadly go onto years (and years) of hormone therapy and dealing with a chemically induced menopause.
I was reading somewhere that you’re as strong as your friendship group. My awesome friends and my beautiful boys have been my lifeline during my diagnosis. I feel honored to be surrounded by so much love and positive vibes from my partner and family.
Summer 2020 was the first time I checked my breasts and body, and I could not believe the lump I found in my right breast. If I can inspire at least 10 people a month to be checking their body and breasts, I will be a happy lassie.
Wear it pink is a symbol of empathy, understanding and hope: an invisible pink glittery thread joining us together for one day
#WearItPink is a strong universal pink message we all understand; where we can feel united wherever we might be on the cancer journey, in supporting a family or friend during their cancer treatment or wanting to make a difference. Cancer affects such a large percentage of the UK. Wear it pink is a symbol of empathy, understanding and hope: an invisible pink glittery thread joining us together for one day.
When you’re brainstorming your wear it pink event, base it around something you enjoy and are passionate about, and people will feed off your energy. Ask a few friends to assist you in your fundraiser as it’s a great excuse to catch up and hang out. Once you have plans in place, set up a fun WhatsApp chat to promote and perhaps a cool flyer to use on the social media channels with a donation link.
Restrictions might stop us all being together in one room, but it will not stop your family and friends supporting you. I equally believe it is also about spreading cancer awareness as well as raising pennies. Having a bit of fun is key, and of course wear pink! My friends and I have raised nearly 10k so far for the March 100k! #teamfi
This year I will wear it pink to raise vital money and awareness for earlier detection, better treatment, research for the future and care for those going through a diagnosis. And to also get covered in pink glitter!
To join me, sign up today.